Ehemmm...
Macam biasalah, entri Indah sekarang ni semuanya mengenai Z.A. Tadi, masa tengah usha-usha profile Z.A ni, Indah pun tergerak hati nak 'mengenali adik beradik dia. So Indah pun bukalah facebook adik dia. Rasanya adik dia kut. Dan adik dia tak buat private pun gambar-gambar dia. Lepas tu, tengok punya tengok, Indah jumpa family pic diaorang. Indah rasa gambar tu masa raya tahun lepas kut. Omaigod, he's so handsome wearing baju Melayu. But I noticed something. Their father is not there. I wonder why. But I don't want to think too much about it. It's their family matters and Indah don't have any right to know.
When I see their family pic, Indah sedar, Indah tak layak untuk Z.A. Perwatakan dia dan keluarganya menyedarkan Indah. He deserves to get someone much much better than me. And I feel very sad with that fact. I'm not a really good girl. I mean, my tudung is not very labuh, Indah cuma gadis biasa. Mengaji pun banyak kesalahan tajwid yang Indah buat. Even hukum-hukum agama pun banyak yang Indah tak khatam lagi. So, the differences between him and me are very big. He's a future ustaz, and me, I'm just a usual girl. Although I'm a future English teacher, but that is not enough.
Lagipun, Indah ada prinsip hidup Indah sendiri. Indah tak boleh memikirkan pasal perkahwinan dan yang sewaktu dengannya selagi Indah tak capai impian Indah. Pada Indah, early marriage is something that is not exist in my life. Terlalu banyak yang Indah ingin kecapi. Cita-cita Indah. Tapi setiap kali Indah terjumpa Z.A., setiap prinsip hidup Indah itu hilang. Indah bagai lupakan segala-galanya. Indah tak tahu. Indah keliru. Indah berusaha untuk tidak fikirkan dia. Tapi macam tak menjadi. Apa yang patut Indah buat?
Footnote: Maybe Indah patut stop thinking about him, don't look at his profile anymore and don't wish to see him anymore. But is it possible?
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